Goodbye Mommy

A post I never thought I would be doing anytime soon. Thursday 13 June, the worst day of my life. My dear mum passed away, without any warnings or signs to prepare us.

As I am writing this post my heart is completely broken, no time in the world would ever be enough with you. To help me heal I wrote you this letter…

The Feeling Of Emptiness…

Dearest Mum,

I will never understand why God has decided to take you from your loving family so early in my life. You were merely 57 years old when he called you home. There are so many things in life I wanted to experience with you by my side. The grandchildren you will never meet breaks my heart.

Just the thought of not being able to talk to you or to share all of this big life moments with you makes me so sad. I wish I told you often how much you meant to me and how much I love you. Being a single parent raising two daughters couldn’t have been easy for you. And oh boy did I give you so many grey hairs… What I wouldn’t give you see your smile one more time… You have never been the type of women who said how you felt, but I always knew how much you loved us with your actions. You would move mountains for us and you have given us the best life you possibly could, under the living conditions we had.

I love you mom more then words could even describe. You were always there when I needed an ear. You were so understanding when I left home to build a life for myself. You always stood by me with the decisions and mistakes I made and was always there to comfort me through it all. There are no words to describe how shattered I am that you are gone. I do know that you would want us to keep living our lives and remembering the good memories we had. I thank God that I had a mum like you, such a strong woman who has gone through so much life struggles to raise us. I am eternally grateful…

I hope you and mama are having a good cup of tea in heaven, I am sure she missed you too. I love you forever and always, the feeling of emptiness will forever be in my heart, but I know you are looking over us with happiness in your heart knowing you have touched so many lives and raised two daughters we will forever remember the life you have provided…

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